an emo day

proof that elmo really is the cause of emoness *quote yeeweng.

this is damn cool.

i rip. im a bad girl. i rip videos. mostly from beatrice cos she has nice and funny ones. well. im sorry =x

i feel so jealous, seeing the softball team walk around with their matching uniforms now. it hurts me to think that i was supposed to be with them. i don't want to hate a teacher. but it makes me feel.. i don't know.

oh. i have bad news. like really bad news. i found out that i'm in love...with..someone. i really don't know who. its like, there's Mino. whom i really enjoy being with. he makes me feel safe. i enjoy his company and i know he loves me.

then there's another guy, MF. haha. his initials are the same as MotherFcuker but he isn't, of course x.x and he makes he feel comfortable. like im actually a somebody.
he tells me things i want to hear.

then there's H. he's so mysterious, and such eye candy. one moment he's clinging on to me, the next, its like im nobody to him. it really keeps me..well.. mystified? but really. though he has a girlfriend.

i have no idea what i want. the worse thing is, all of them are hot, tall, perfect bodies, athletic and hinting to me that they like me too. its either that or they're just flirtatious. and, they're best friends! the 3 of them hang out which other and everytime i see them together, my heart jumps and flutters like a mad butterfly. i know Mino really loves me, but what about myself? i don't wanna lie to him. this is making me extremely emo.

plus, the softball thing isn't making it any better. and exams are next week =='
worse, Sir Devan commented on my attitude change. my nails are long (self note: cut them!), im hanging out with too much boys (mainly cos ALL MY GIRL FRIENDS ARE FUCKING PLAYING SOFTBALL) and my homework is deteriorating (no comment)

i really don't know what i want in life now. im kinda fcuked cos i don't have an ambition, or a dream or whatever you want to call it. i thought of marine biologist, psychiatrist, lawyer, you name it. i also wanted to be in a band, but i fcking suck in piano. oh. a housewife? fat hopes. i can't cook or clean to save my own life.

i know i should turn to God for answers. but really, whenever i see others speaking in Tongues, i feel jealous, that i can't. i try concentrating and try mending my wrongs but i just can't see what they see. some one please help me. i need a hug. and cos of all this, im starting to have a weight problem. im not fat, i know im not. i just need to lose some. don't say im fat. there's such a thing as karma and remember : what goes around, comes back around.

anyway, instead of studying, ive been watching a lot of TV. like American Idol for example. Blake Lewis i LOVEEEE! Lakisha is out, so TAKE THAT JENKAI! HAHAHA. oh, and i cried when Chris Richardson got kicked. oh, and then there's Heroes. here are some parodies C=

Zeroes 1

Zeroes 2

be patient.

im in need of a real life. like seriously. i haven't been out for so long, other than piano, and church.

oh, speaking of church, im going for Youth Camp. Teenacity's Relentless.
visit yeah. if u wanna come, let me know BY THIS SUNDAY. sorry for the late notice >< style="color: rgb(153, 51, 153);">MeMyrra

eh denise, do u play the piano?
mm, yeah.
oh, so u have a piano in your house lahh.
yeah. i do. why?
nothing just asking. do u have an organ too?
*LOL*
why?
nothing nothing.
*no idea what to answer* err... no organ. just piano
oh. i don't have an organ either.
*laughs louder*
oh really?
yeah. no organ. come my house next time and see lah
*ROFLMAO LOL* wahahahahaahah!
O.o?

LOL. u understand right. hahaaa. damn.



okay. fairly long post. bye.