no way.

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are aloof, mysterious, and distant. People feel like they really don't know the true you... Yet they're still drawn to you, almost by magnetic force. Underneath it all, you don't even really feel like you know yourself. It's easier to put on a front than really think about your life's purpose. You tend to seem pretentious, but it's just a mechanism you use to push people away.

What's the Part of You That No One Sees?

i actually find that true. do you?

t h i s c a n n o t b e h a p p e n i n g.

okay.
so everyone knows i like smoker guy. and i'm great friends with his another friend, skinny guy.
im always helping skinny guy in tuition and belanja-ing him and all that crap.

so when i found out that smoker guy was his good friend, i asked him to help me to you know, be smoker guy's friend.

anyway, there were signs showing that smoker guy likes me for the past one week. but the only thing was, he never looked me in the face.

so today, while waiting for the bus, i was sitting near him, calmly when i glanced at him. he was staring at me. so i stared back seeing it was the most rational thing to do.

then he said the most scary thing.
he said..

"[insert my name here], it's not me who likes you, its [insert skinny guy's name here] who likes you"

then i replied

"since when? 0.0"

then he did the cutest thing - he bent his head, as if he was embarrased at what he said. skinny guy was right next to him.
then my friend, who was with me at that time said,

"which [insert skinny guy's name here]?"

then smoker guy said, "this one *points to skinny guy*"

skinny guy just ignored the whole thing while i was freaking out there.

okay. so the conclusion is, skinny guy likes me, which is true cos in the bus, i asked one of his classmates if it was true and she said it was.
another thing is, smoker guy might just be lying. or at least i really really hope so.
the next thing is, i can't live with skinny guy liking me while i like his best friend. i really like skinny guy, but just as a friend, nothing more.
and the last thing is, i REALLY REALLY hope smoker guy is lying and i hope i didn't embarass him, somehow.


but anyway, im sure it'll be alright cos skinny guy is quite known for changing girlfriends like changing underwear.

i REALLY REALLY hope smoker guy was lying. you should have seen his b e a utiful eyes when he stared right into mine.

it might not really seem like anything much to you, but it means a lot to me. he looked so.. so.. embarrassed. i don't want him to be embarrassed by me. it means a lot to me. cos i really like him. honestly.

damn, why must life be so difficult.