#55 Thou shall not talk shit.

So today someone told me that apparently I'm 'like some paranoid girl going after him'. WOW. Just wow.

First of all, ever since I've seen you with your girlfriend, I've stepped down. Not like I wanted you that bad in the first place anyway. And now you accuse me of glaring at your girlfriend? The fuck? Gee, I'm sorry. I'd start on how I really don't think your girlfriend and you are all that, but I'm above that. So yea.

I made it a point not avoid you since that day, and it really isn't my fault that you and your girlfriend prefer to be all touchy and shit all over campus right. I don't even look at her face or yours, for goodness sake.

Okay, I know I'm making a big deal out of this. Maybe not. Perhaps it's because life's been so quiet, no drama for a long time. But seriously. I'm pissed off right now. Never ceases to amaze me how some people can be so full of themselves.

Currently listening to : Cooler Than Me by Mike Postner

#48 One mistake from being together

Hey hello,
I know I've kinda abandoned my blog a bit. It's just that, life's been so.. crazy yet boring at the same time.

The logic to that statement is well, pretty simple yet complicated. LOL WTF right.
I think I've gone bonkers.

College has been so busy! I've got so much tests, and assignments, I've never had so much work to do before.
But yet, I find myself on Facebook 3-4 hours a day, and don't even get me started on weekends. When it's Saturday or Sunday, I completely forget I even go to college :/

I feel lifeless. And yes, that is just expected of a SAM student. But but I feel like I've missed out on life before this so much that I just want to live now. I just want to be spontaneous and go out for a drive with friends, skip class and just well, live. But then I feel guilty when I do so cause of the work I have.

And oh my goodness, my horrendous results. You don't even want to know. 5 out of 40 for Chemistry, the lowest in class. I am so failing SAM. I need help la, fishcake. And Spec Maths. Holy cow, why was I even crazy enough to think that I could handle this? :(

I'm sort of broken. In a way. My heart is like, in so many pieces and just flying off in different directions that I don't even know what to think or feel anymore. It's confusing.

Part of me tells me to just forget about all this and just concentrate on SAM. But the other part. The other raging, screaming part that wants him to know I exist, so so badly. I hate how much he knows I linger around so he can say hey, or that my heart skips two, maybe three beats when I see him.

And my classmates. They don't like me. Well, not all of them (I hope.), but two of the five people I feel most comfortable with. Sometimes I figure that I can't be too loud, but I just can't help it. I'm always the misfit. I wish life wasn't such a dick.

Oh and I can't find my camera charger, fuck.

Currently listening to : Airplanes by B.O.B ft Hayley Williams

#46 Baby when it rains, it pours.

Hey hello,

Well today was a really bad day that ironically started off pretty well. Okay, not really.
Halfway through my walk to the bus stop, I realised I forgot my Student ID. But hey, wasn't like I was planning to go anywhere that required my Student ID ain't it. Other than college, the library and the web. Pfft.
In class, I fell asleep in Chem and missed out on a whole hour of class.
Then the whole class had to skip lunch and walk all the way to a park in SS15 for our class photoshoot which by the way is due on Monday and I haven't even got round to it yet! (Y) We wanted to take a shortcut from the back of campus, but it ended up being closed so all 29 of us had to make a huge round back to the main entrance.
The sun was so hot but yet the park was wet from the rain last night. So of course, my dear Converse had to get all muddy. In the end, we all had to take pictures looking all sticky and sweaty. And plus, I so wore the wrong outfit and now I look fat (yeah, blame the outfit ;p)
Oh and guess what, on the way back, my glasses broke. I seriously do not know how or why, but it just did. I thought it felt kinda funny so I touched it and next thing you knew, one side of the frame had fallen off. So much for a RM400+ pair of glasses with a lousy glue job.
Then I had my Maths class test, which took up 10% of my internal assesment with broken glasses. I managed just fine, till it started raining. Yeah, in class. Something somewhere was leaking and I had to be the lucky one to sit under it. FML.
So being all moody and crappy, I was kinda quiet in Spec Maths class, just waiting for the day to end, and my lecturer came up to me and said, "Denise, you need to catch up. Come and see me for counselling." Oh great, just fucking great, now I need counselling.
And the best part of all, I finally spoke to the cutie on the bus and first thing he said was, "What happened to your glasses?!" You have got to be kidding me.

So yeah, I believe bad days make you stronger. I endured all kinds of shit on the supposedly shortest day of the week. But mummy came, picked me up, took me to get my glasses changed and of course, big fat hug for the bad day. Hehe.

Some pictures of the class photoshoot, and no shit, I seriously look huuuuge :O
But oh well. The rest of the pictures are on Facebook, here.











Love my Mfourians (; Mfourthewin, hehe see what I just did there? ;p

Currently listening to : Airplanes ft Hayley Williams & Eminem by B.o.B

#43 Egg Mayo Sandwich 101

Hey hi hello! Happy Thursday :D

So today the guys and I were too lazy to think of a place to grab a bite, so we decided to head over to Chern Jin's place to make sandwiches! Stopped by 7Eleven to buy bread the walked the short 5 minutes walk to his place.

I now present to you :

Chern Jin's, Kee Kiat's and Denise's How to Make an Egg Mayo Sandwich Without Phailing (:

Firstly, you need bread, mayo, salt & pepper (important for you may end up running to Herbs&Foods for that, not saying we did ;p), eggs fosho, water and possibly a small fan.

Place some water in a pot till it boils, then slowly lower the eggs into the water coz you don't wait it looking like this :

After 15-20 minutes, pour the water out and start peeling.



Working together is a good idea especially if you only have 20 minutes until class starts.

If it's too hot, that's where the fan comes in ;)

Finally, mash up all the eggs, add mayo and salt & pepper to taste. Optional : add some lime juice for that awesome zest! We didn't have any though ;)


Stuff it all onto some bread and TADAAAAH!

Declare it a non-epicfail experiment, fosho!

From left, Chern Jin's ass, my ass, Kee Kiat's half :D

Thanks to Ming Tat, Szu Jie & Lih Shyan for helping to watch and chowing it all down in less than 5 minutes (Y) Oh, they did help to peel, and *not* complaining that the eggs were too hot :p
We ended up not having enough stuffing and were late for class anyway, but I sure had loads of fun.

Oh, and we were at Sunway watching Kick Ass yesterday. Kicked some ass did it indeed. Stupidly funny movie ;p Once again, I find myself clicking with guys more than girls. The girls in my class no likey me :/ Oh wells.

"So what do you think are some of the systematic errors during this experiment?" - Physics lecturer
"Oh the radius of the circle was hard to maintain" - Zhi Xuan
"Yeah, the clip wasn't in the same place" - Koek Yao
"So that's a systematic error?" - PL
"No" "No" ZX & KY
"HAHAHHAHAHAHA." - Class

"What is the structural shape of this molecule" - Chem lecturer
"Trigonal pyramidal!, CH3CH4 bla bla, V-shaped!" -Everyone
"Square -.-" CL

LOL, may not seem funny to you but it was at the time. I love my class haha. And Philip's contagious laughter :D

Now, everyone smile and say, "I ♥ French Fries!" ;p



Currently listening to : Billionaire by Travis McCoy ft Bruno Mars

#42 Ready, Set, Go!

Hey hi!

This Saturday night is Tokio Hotel's concert, so you gotta be there or be square! Loads of people I know say that Tokio Hotel are for fags, mainly coz of the lead singer, Bill Kaulitz, whom I love ♥ With his almost perfect hair, and sexy voice (unlike freaking Justin Bieber), I can't wait for his performance :D



Bill Kaulitz, Tom Kaulitz, Gustav Schäfer, and Georg Listing, whoo!

I'll be there with Ikin and her boyfriend, and possibly my sister, although I still think it's unfair that I never went for concerts at 15, and she is. I think she has even went for more than I have. Pssh, how sad.

Anyway, today I had my Physics test, which was an absolute EPIC FAIL! I never expected it to be so hard. I understand all the freaking concepts and shit, I just never knew one could twist it around so much. I'm definitely getting less than 10 out of 30 marks :/

So, lesson learnt. I'm doing previous papers for my Chem test tmrw, because I really really don't want to fail. Its high time I catch up with myself (Y)

Currently listening to : Wedding Dress by Tae Yang

#34 Chang behind the wheel

Learners Driving License :)

Eheheh, excuse the picture, I'm just really excited that I'm getting closer to my Satria GTi *winks

Yesterday was Sam's 15th, we didn't celebrate since she had school and all, so we just bought her a cake and surprised her. It was just mum, Sam and I. Great berbonding time. We took lots of pictures, but since it was a surprise, Sam says the pictures can't be uploaded coz she looked ugly. Haha, yeah.

Anyway, today I went for my first driving class ever. Frankly, it was a disaster. First of all, my instructor was ancient. He was like, 65?! And to make things worse, he didn't speak any English so we had to converse in Malay. I think my engine died about 30 times today, and thank goodness I didn't run over anything.

Oh, but when I was halfway driving, a dark brown lizard scrambled out from the dashboard, and knowing how terrified I am of lizards, I totally just let go of everything, the clutch, brakes and steering wheel. The car didn't stop and the lizard was sitting like a feet away from my face. And trust me, that is the closest I will ever get to a lizard. My poor instuctor was freaking out, thinking I was mad when I slammed on the brakes and got out of the car. After he shooed it away, I totally wasn't concentrating anymore, afraid that the lizard might come out again. My instructor couldn't get over my epic move, shaking his head and scolding me in Chinese. Hahaha.

All in all, it was a funny experience, and my instructor even told me to go learn Chinese. Mmmmm hahaha okay. My next class is next week, on Saturday, after the first week of college. How uusum is that? :D

Aaaand, if you haven't already noticed to oh-so fabulous header I have, it's hand drawn by the one and only Atina, and edited by Faiz J, thanks guys!

Currently listening to : Break Your Heart (Remix) ft Ludacris - Taio Cruz

#32 Keep on keepin' on

Dad did the honors of scanning in my SPM results.

I wasn't intending to post my results until a certain someone went through with the deal he made, but since the cat's out of the bag, here it is. I must say, I have yet again failed to surprise myself with the A- for Sejarah and the B for Add Maths. All I can say is, I'm happy, and I thank God for this (:

Work has been.. bad. Everytime I say something, I screw up. Everytime I do something, I shouldn't have. Yesterday I was giving out flyers to people in The Curve. And to be honest, this experience has totally disregarded any irritance or annoyance I ever had for people who spam me with flyers in any shopping complexes.

It's not fun, having to stand for 7 hours a day, saying "Excuse me, sir/miss" every five seconds (on a busy weekend, about 15 seconds on a weekday) and being given a 'go away' stare OR, having people see you holding flyers and intentionally walk 5 feet away from you so that you'll look like a complete idiot chasing the person and being rejected anyways (!)

And things with my boss. Fishcake. I keep forgetting that it isn't high school anymore, I can't just skip when I feel like it, or gossip without any big drama. Psh. Welcome to the real world, ay. I'm really really hoping things will turn out fine. I don't want to get fired or something :/

Oh, and for those who have always wanted to ask me something, but never had the balls to, I've got formspring. HERE.

Anywayyy, can't wait for college. Orientation is on the 29th (:

Byeee.

Currently listening to : Sam in the shower :p

#27 Outta My Head

Well at least we know I'm not retarded. Or blind.

So yeah, I failed my computer test for my driving license. I'm seriously pissed at myself for so many reasons.

First of all, I thought I could finish early so that then my mum, sister and I could go down to Taylor's Lakeside Campus for the Acts Church 10th anniversary event which I was really really really looking forward to :( I promised so many people, including myself that I would be there but yeah. They don't call me ffk kid for nothing kayz? Failing the test makes it all worse.

Then, I waited for 4 hours (!) before I could take my test and in the end, phail anyway so what's the fishcake point kan? I tell you, some Malaysians take their own sweet time when it comes to certain things like organizing the candidates for the stupid computer test.

And the worst part of it all, I FAILED BY ONE EFFING POINT! One! One! ONE! 1! Satu! FML lah seriously. I'm going again tmrw so fat hopes of me sleeping in late after so many days of waking up early (okay, not really but pfft). I plan to go superman early so I can be one of the first to finish the test tmrw. Dang lah, I just want to get it over with ya know?

And mark my words for tonight I shall actually read the buku soalan thing!

Currently listening to : Automatic by Tokio Hotel