Filling an empty space,

Currently Listening to : Halo - Beyonce
Currently Feeling : A thump thump thumping headache!

HEY HELLO HI ;D

I know, I know. I've absolutely, completely abandoned my blog. I'm sorry, I've been kinda busy and honestly? I didn't really have anything to inspire me to blog. HAHA. Oh well, the great thing is, I'm BACK. And hopefully I'll last longer this time ;)

Honestly, nothing has changed much since the last time I blogged properly. School is still school, friends are still friends. I come online often, but I just MySpace most of the time. I don't really have much of a life nowadays since my dad took my phone away on New Year's Day. It's a long story and let's just all pretend that the reason is because of my upcoming SPM exams.

School has been extremely tiring. Softball season has started again and I'm staying back at school everyday for extra classes. I'm literally spending more time in school than at home. But oh well, I keep telling myself it's just for this year and then, freedom! Hoho. Anyway, other than that, nothing much really. Sports day came and left, my house got first placing. I contributed a bit, I ran 4x100m, 100m, 200m and long jump + perfect attendance for house practice ;)

I still haven't got my D-SLR camera HAHA. I've been scheming up ways to get one, I really just can't seem to save up my own money. So, I've finally asked my uncle to help me get one, I'll pay him back as soon as I start working after SPM. I'm really excited, I'm hoping I can get it in a week's time or so. I felt it was kinda wasted that I couldn't get to use it for my Sports Day, the school mag pictures would have been clearer. Oh btw, I made Chief Editor, yay me :p

By the way, my maid went back to Indonesia recently, and just two days before that, RM1000+ from my sister and I's combined Chinese New Year money was stolen. We couldn't point fingers at anyone since we had no proof, but who else could it be right? I was pretty upset since I was looking forward to spending that money on my much needed sneakers and cardigan. Oh well, shit happens eh.

Another chapter of my life happened recently, in fact just this morning. I had my Grade 8 Theory of Music exam in SMK Sri Aman and let me tell you this, I am SO relieved that it's over. I stayed over Ms Beh's place and totally hardcored this past few days. I am so last minute -.-
Oh, and I had a haircut the day before yesterday and it is h-o-r-r-i-b-l-e! It's too short and the "stylist" gave me bangs which my round and fat face looks terrible with! Goshh, I'm so glad my hair grows fast :/

Anyway, did anyone watch the game last weekend? I sure did. Manchested United vs Liverpool. The much talked about awaited game of the season. I supported Liverpool since I'm anti-Man Utd :D I can't express how much joy I felt when it was a 4-1 win for Liverpool. 3-1 was bad enough, 4-1 is just embarrasing. And the funny thing is, my friends who are hardcore supporters of Man Utd totally refuse to admit that Man Utd sucks, saying that the hero loses first and stuff like that. Hoyeah, I agree with Hafiz, Man Utd supporters are totally stuck-up :p

Okay, I should prolly stop now before I finish everything in one post. Haha.
Till the next post, lots of love,
Denise ;)

Random Note : Allison Iraheta rocks!

The Big Oh-Nine

Currently Listening to : 1234 - Plain White Tees
Currently Feeling : Happy :D

Hey ho, Happy New Year!
How was everyone's new year?
Mine was at the Curve and it was just awesome! There was a lot of people though but still, everyone was great. The fireworks were awesome, as usual.
I don't want to go on and on about how awesome it was, you should have been there yourself :)
Pictures will be uploaded later.

Anyway, its the new year. Some people are saying that 2009 is just a number. I say they should cheer up and move on. It's a new year! Start new, forgive and forget. Why hang on to the past when you can have a great future? You're just being silly if you think everything will be the same. Do something to change it then!

In fact, I'm really excited about starting Form Five. Not about SPM though. I just can't wait till high school is over and move on to college and start driving. HAHAH. I've got a lot more responsibility now and I really hope I can live up to it. My parents are depending on me to do well for SPM so I can apply for a scholarship. I'm depending on myself too. I just need proper time management *sighs.

Oh, and stay in school people! ;)

To finish things off, I got tagged by Gwen <3 style="font-weight: bold;">Rules and regulations
Do not copy answers
The tag questions must be 100% the same.
Tag people after doing tag.
No tagging back

Tagged by Gwendoline ;)

I tag ...
1) Khei Qi
2) Kevin
3) Justina
4) Mathew
5) Hsu Wern
6) Alyssa
7) Audrey
8) Mei Yen
9) Tze Wei
10) Li Bing hahah!


How do you know 1?
From piano class. It's been four years already :)

What would you do if you never meet 2?
I'd probably be much happier! HAHAHA kiddingggg!

What would you do if 3 & 4 dated you?
Oh, erm I don't know.

Do you think 7 is attractive?
Hoyeahhh :)

Do you know anything about 8’s family?
Only her sister. heh.

What language does 2 speaks?
Tamil and Tagalog only. Which is why he sucks x)

Who is 3 going out with?
Ken-Ji HAHAHAHA!

How old is 4?
17 this year.

When was the last time you talked to 5?
About 2 weeks or so.

Who is 6's favourite singer?
I have no idea!

Would you date number 7?
Hahah yeah, anytime!

What is number 9 last name?
Young Tze Wei :D

Would you consider being in a relationship with 1?
Anyday.

Which school does 2 go to?
SOME STOOOOOOPID SCHOOL IN NEW ZEALAND!
Heh. Sorry, I just miss you, retard :')

Why isn't there anything about 10? :(

Ho Ho Ho!

Merry Christmas!

to all my friends and family. It's the season of giving, so give. May this be a joyful year for you, and for the years to come.

*I promise a proper update soon (:

Tis' the season to be jolly :D

Currently Listening to : Last Christmas - Ashley Tisdale
Currently Feeling : Greedeeee ;)

"Last Christmas, I gave you my heart, but the very next day, you gave it away. This year, to save me from tears, I'll give it to someone special"

HO HO HO!

The TV's promoting Christmas shopping sprees, the radio's airing Christmas carols, people are starting Christmas shopping, what more do you need?

clickety click to enlarge*

CHRISTMAS IS COMING!

Can't you feel the excitement? The joy of Christmas filling your souls? C'mon people, where's the spirit? A once-a-year event where families get together to celebrate the birth of our Jesus Christ. The happiness on children faces when receiving gifts, the laughter of older ones, it's just beautiful.

I simply love it! The food, the songs, the presents, the decorations, the spirit. Every year, I can't wait! The green, the red, the white. It's something I look forward to. And it's coming! I'm saving money to go Christmas shopping for loved ones ♥

Okay, I guess here is where I become selfish.
My ever-so-expensive Christmas wishlist! ;)

• Nikon D80/Canon 400D D-SLR camera ((:
• A silver Sony VAIO laptop which I know is literally impossible to hope for,
• A new phone, perhaps?
• Nike Air sneakers,
• A new wallet because mine's all torn up,
• Shopping money! ;p
• A trip to NZ to meet my cousins ♥
• But of course, one thing I won't afford miss out on, meeting my family for Christmas to celebrate together :D

I'm not counting on receiving any of the wishes above, really. I know they're really difficult to get. But what I really want is that D-SLR hintshintshintstilleyespopout* ;)

Before I sign off,

MERRY CHRISTMAS once again,
AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR! ;)

HOHOHO,
Denise Chang (:

Once in a lifetime.

I know some people have been waiting for this post;
Sorry for that :/

Anyway, I think about a week back, I decided to just take a look at the moon, just for fun. It must have been my lucky day, coz amazingly in sight, it was smiling at me ;)
Literally.



According to the internet, it was Venus and Jupiter that made the "eyes" of the smiley. I'm not so sure since I can't remember. But they seemed to frown in America though, I'm assuming its because of the direction the moon orbits? In Malaysia, however, it smiles :D
Apparently, the next sighting like this will be in 2052, so I guess we're pretty lucky.

And yes, of course I made a wish ;p

Music For Perfect Harmony

Currently Listening to : Bella's Lullaby written by Carter Burwell
Currently Feeling : Satisfied ;)

Before I start, I just realized something. My blog is really really really boring. OMG, I never thought I would be a boring person :/

Therefore, I have decided to add more colour and stuff to my post, and we'll see how that works. HAHA.

Okay, today was simply awesome :D

I stayed over at Beh Beh's place again last night. I woke up kinda early and got ready. We went to UM where it was pretty busy. Everyone was getting ready and stuff.
Then, I got a message from Sam saying that daddy was sick and might not be able to make it for the concert. I called them immediately and daddy said he was really tired. I didn't want to be selfish so I just agreed. But then I didn't know why but I started to sob really loudly. I didn't mean to, I guess I was just disappointed coz it was my first performance. But anyway, daddy said he'll try his best. I love you, papa (:

So anyway, I changed into my dress but I didn't wear the white wedges that I bought. Instead, I ran around in my stilettos when I was looking for people. It made too much noise so I decided to wear my crocs temporarily. Goshh, you don't know how close to heaven it was when I was walking in my crocs. I know loads of people hate them, but really, put one on :D

When it was time for my turn to perform, I was so numb to the bone that I didn't really feel anything. It was partly because of the coolness of the hall (which was like the temperature of a freezer) but mostly, I was really nervous.

In the end, I think I did pretty well. I didn't make any mistakes at all! WOOOHOOO! I tried to play with more expression but Beh Beh said it was perfect so I'm really glad. I'm also really relieved that it's finally over :D

I'm so happy that mama and papa were both there for me :')

And to all my friends. People that I've known for like half my life but I've never really gotten to know them well. Hsu Wern, Hsu Yan, Gwendoline, Hong Lingg, Khei Qi, Khei Sze, Mei Yen, Alyssa, Wen Qi, Tze Wei, Hui Ying, Nicole, Lee Ling, Hillaryyyyy, Kenzo, Li Bing the man-bitch (haha kidding! ;p) and of course, Beh Beh :D I love you guys (:

I WANT TO UPLOAD PICTURES! GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH :(

PS : This post was torture :/

Love, Denise (:

Rock-hard floors and too little blankets.

Currently Listening to : The dialogue of "A Cinderella Story"
Currently Feeling : Hyper and sleepy at the same time? :)

"Waiting for you, is like waiting for rain in this drought. Useless and disappointing."
- A Cinderella Story

I'm lying on the floor with 5 other girls while A Cinderella Story is playing on TV. Chad Michael Murray ♥, hoyeahh :)
Most of them are already sleeping so it's just me blogging and Nicole watching with me. It's about 4 in the morning and I'm kinda sleepy.

Just a quick update on what I did today;
I went shopping at Bangsar with my sister today. Mama and Papa gave me RM100 each so I was really happy. I bought a dress for RM34.90 coz it was on sale from Baci. I got 50% off :DD
I also bought shoes from Vincci in One Utama. A pair of gorgeous white wedges and a pair of blue-beige stilettos. Both for RM80 which I think is a great deal.

I would take pictures, but then again, you know. no camera :(

Everything's been such a drag.

Currently Listening to : About A Girl - The Academy Is...
Currently Feeling : Bored to tears :'(

"And after a while you learn that you don't need anyone else in order to survive. No one is ever going to always be there, no matter what they say or what they promise you. You just gotta suck it up, accept it and keep on keepin' on."
- Hey Arnold

Heyy everyone (:

It's been a week of holidays and I tell you, I have been so bored!
Everything is so repetitive. I sleep and wake up at odd hours, like sleeping at 5am then waking up at 6pm. Or sleeping at 10pm and waking up at 6am. Yes, terrible, I know.
I even stayed awake for 36 hours, just for fun.
I go online, I eat, sleep and watch endless TV. I have even picked up my cross-stitch (yes, it's one of those 'grandma' things) that I started back in Form One. Its been four years since I started this project and its finally showing some result (:
As for school homework, I hardly bothered to complete them. My teachers will most probably forget like always.
I'm also excited yet saddened at the same time about starting Form Five next year. Goshh, I still can't believe how time is literally flying by.

Anyway, the only action I get is during the weekends. And those are quite repetitive too. I meet up with Aqil on Saturdays, may or may not go for Teenacity, then I'm home watching TV again. On Sundays I'm at Beh Beh's place having a few laughs with my friends and then I'm home again unless my parent (whichever one I'm staying with for the weekend) decides to go somewhere for something.
Here I am trying to make everyday its best but it keeps backfiring on me. I want to work during the hols but I have no transport since I practically live in the middle of nowhere. Then again, knowing me, I'll probably quit halfway anyway (:


Anyway, Mathew will be leaving on Monday :(
I'm so gonna miss him. I'll miss all those moments when we were bimbo or horny with each other. Kevin, Bing, Qiqi, Hill, Mat and me. I love these people man.
Dude, I know you hardly read my blog but I've just got to say this, I love you man, and there's definitely no regrets when we became friends. It's been almost two years already and I'll miss you to bits. Kevin has already left us all stranded so you better come back and see us ;p
And don't forget your SLR HAHAHAHAH ;D

Anyway, I customized my blog a bit, coz I was getting bored of the previous look. I spent about an hour searching for a new blogskin but I decided it would be too much of a hassle rather than just making a few tweaks.

One of the other things I've been doing online this week was looking at new movies coming soon. I was so excited when I saw Inkheart the movie trailer!
It's a book I read when I was Form One or Two when my cousin brought it back from England for me. It's about a man, Mo, who can breathe life into everthing that he reads. Then he discovers his daughter has the same magic. Only, he never reads out loud again because he lost his wife when he was reading aloud to her. She got sucked into the book, into another world. When Dustfinger, one of the characters Mo read into reality came to find him, Meggie (I think that's the daughter's name) and Mo have to go into the book to save her mother :)
I have no idea if what I just said made any sense at all, but do watch the movie when its released. Hehe.
I already read Inkspell, the sequel but I seriously can't wait for Inkheart, due for release in Jan 09.

AND TWILIGHT IS COMING! 27 NOV 27 NOV 27 NOV!
I'm soooo excited. I'll be booking tickets, so whoever wants to watch with me, just let me know (:

Okay, I think that's enough excitement and blabs for one post.
I'm going to Fly FM's party in a few hours, so yay, finally some fun (:

Ohh and good luck to my Form 5 friends taking SPM (:
I know I'm kinda late but oh well.

Random Note : AD and Fuzzie are FINALLY out! * does victory dance* ;p

xoxo, denise (:

Some things are just not meant to be.

Currently Listening to : If I Were A Boy - Beyonce
Currently Feeling : Lethargic

"If you can't laugh at yourself, life's gonna seem a whole lot longer than you'd like. What do ya do? You laugh, you know, I'm not saying I don't cry... but in between... I laugh."
- Garden State

I haven't updated for a week :D

HEYY!
How was Halloween for everyone? I spent it at home watching The Simpsons :)

But anyway, my week has been quite eventless. I went out on Saturday with friends and all. And that was pretty much it.

I fought with Aqil though. I hope we can pull through. Maybe I'm just not meant to be in a relationship yet. I can't seem to be satisfied. I know its unfair to him for me to be so selfish. But I'm just not happy. I'm trying, I really am. But I don't know :(

Other than that, my dearest grandpa was robbed outside my grandma's place. The two Indian robbers slashed his head and took his phone and money. Such a horrible thing to do to a man of his age, isn't it? He was already inside the house porch but they still came in to rob him. He had over 30 stitches and 2 torn arteries. But he's fine now :D

I also saw a small kid steal a bottle of Coke when I was waiting in the car for my mum. He had already paid for the stuff he needed. And as he was walking away he looked kinda doubtful. Suddenly, he turned around and went to the store's fridge and took out a bottle of Coke. He glanced around quickly and put the bottle into his plastic bag. The store owner didn't see because he was dealing with some other customers. I was laughing my head off. I was looking at the boy because he was my friend's younger brother and he was really cute. I wasn't really surprised though. That boy has 8 siblings altogether and they're really poor. Why not enjoy a bottle of Coke for free, eh?

So yeah, those were the very few unimportant events in that happened this week.
I have one more day of exam tmrw :D
I can't wait for the holidays to come. And good luck to all SPM candidates ;)

Denise (:

cheer 2008

This was my friends and I at Cheer 2008.
You may not understand why I chose to hang out with these people, but hey, I don't really care.
They're my friends and I would prefer not to discriminate between races.
Sorry to say, my Chinese friends or my ex-DJ friends were somehow too "shy" to say hi to me.
By the way, there were more people but they haven't arrived yet. For the picture, I mean.

Cheers! ;)

Chelsea FC vs Malaysia

Currently Listening to : Say (All I Need) - One Republic
Currently Feeling : Disappointed

VS

Chelsea FC

Malaysia

And we ALL know who's gonna get their butt kicked right?
I LOOOOOVE CHELSEAA WOOOOOOT!
And if you see carefully enough, it says Persatuan Kenasepak Malaysia not Persatuan Bola Sepak Malaysia :))

But I AM disappointed that I don't get to see my FAVOURITE football club live in action :|
I hope EZRUL has fun!



Ohh, and Hsu Yan's tag x)


1.What are your goals/dreams?
To be an architect, to travel the world and for now, OWN A SLR CAMERA.

2. The most happiest thing in your life?
Thing? Well, the thing that makes me happy is well, erm, actually just my family and true friends. They're all I need.

3. Favourite colour?
Lime green and light green :)

4. Do you have a crush now? How did you know each other?
Yeahh I do and we met through my ex. HAHA xD

5. Where do you wish to go the most? Why?
Paris, China and India. "Coz it's CULTURAL LIKE SHIT.

6. What is your weakness that you can't stand the most?
I get hardly get angry and when I do, it's only for the moment and that makes people think they can step all over me. I also have this soft spot for anything pitiful, even sad commercials can make me cry. I also procrastinate too much. But hey, wiseman says procrastinators are leaders of tomorrow x)

7. What will you do if you face something sad?
Logically, I'll just cry.

8. Most afraid to lose..?
FAMILY. And friends. Also my phone. And virginity ;DD

9. What is the practical target within this 5 years?
Finish up my Grade 8 for piano, do well in my SPM, and get into an awesome college or university. Yes, very kwai, I know ;)

10. Ask yourself, do you like yourself?
Yeah, I'm fine with myself, there's nothing that I regret doing and I won't hate myself if I met myself on the street :)

11. Favorite song?
For now, Thunder by Boys Like Girls. This changed occasionally.

12.What weird things that you wish to happen?
Weird? Erm, I'm not that creative right now.

13.What age do you wish to live until?
As long as I happily can ;)

14. You Hate which type of people the most?
Backstabbers and hypocrites.

15.Are you satisfied with your life?
For now, yes.

16. What do you wish to do the most now?
GO FOR THE MATCH IN SHAH ALAM!

17.Prefer to be alone or in group?
I prefer to be in a group, but sometimes you can be in a room full of people and still feel alone. So it depends.

18.If you can have a wish, what will you wish for?
I would wish for more time to think about my wish. Really, I wouldd.

19.What are you doing at this moment?
Doing this thingg.

20.Have you found yourself?
Not yet.


The five people I wish to know more about is :
Mathew Woo so that he has another reason to blog,
Sofea cos she tagged me many times :)
Kevin Woo , when he can,
Debbie cos I miss her,
And You ;)

my sweet sixteen :)

WAS BORING !

Well, it WAS !

I went to school like usual, had my stupid add maths and biology exam, went for recess as usual and went home as usual.
I didn't even get flour-ed (Thank God) but still, that would be something different.
Came home as usual, took a nap as usual.
HAHA, yes it was like every other day.

But I want to thank everyone who wished me ;)
Late or not, I still love you guys!
So thanks :D

Oh, and I love Azree for cheating and calling me at 11.55 and talking to me till 12.15 causing a traffic jam on my call waiting list :D
Hahahah, I love you la bodoh :)

Roxy Summer Splash 2008

SUMMER SPLASH 2008 , in two words :

IT SUCKED !

Okay , honestly , it didn't . But what really sucked was my phone and camera was stolen .
STOOOOOOOOOOOOOOPID CHEEEEBAAAAAIII TOOOOOOOOOOOTT $%^&*%^& !!

Sorry , I tried my best not to curse . But really weyh , I LOVED MY CAMERA ! And the worst part about it that it's not even a year old and the phone is my dad's phone :/
I really felt like crying but luckily I had my friends to be there for me . But I wasn't the only unlucky one , 5 other phones just from my group of friends were also stolen and I later found out that tons of other people had their stuff stolen . Including some SLR cameras . Damn , I was glad that I didn't have an SLR to lose . But I really want one , so I'm saving money :D

In the end , there was SO many people that I couldn't find all the people that I really wanted to meet . Although , I still got to watch awesome performances by Altered Frequency , Bittersweet and Pop Shuvit . But I really wanted to meet some people , which I didn't get the chance to . Even so , I met loads of new people and friends .
AND I HAVE NO FREAKING PICTURES TO POST cos I didn't have a camera to take pictures with thankyouverymuch :(

Anyway , here's what I'm saving money for (:

CHUNTEDD RITEEE ?

lovee ,
denise :)

teenacity revolution camp!

So hey , I got back from Teenacity's Revolution Camp weeks ago , and sorry I just never took the time to sit down and update about it .

Anyway , it was awesome . But I'm not gonna do a day by day update cos I know all of you won't read it .

But some highlights were the Crazy Games by Darren Soh and Arthur Keng who made us dip our hair in flour , water and eggs . Yes , it was disgusting and it cost us and hour and a half in the toilet pulling at each other's hair . Us , being Charlotte , Sam , Vanessa and myself . We were roomates . And I tell you , these people just rock la .

Other than that , there were the awesome heart-touching sermons by Pastor Andy and Rev. Kenneth . And there were awesome worship sessions and singing out of tune-ness . That's what I really love about Teenacity . You can scream or sing out of tune , jump around like a monkey doing what you love most , without looking like some idiot on drugs . Well , we WERE high , but high on God's love . Bwahahaha :)

Besides that , there was the sketch which my team miserably failed at , even though we won 2nd for the whole camp :) And there was the Guardian Angel game . I love that game lahh . It's awesome . Although this year , my angel was Yong Pin this small 12 year old kid who didn't give me anything . Ohh well , but my mortal was Chan Tong and I spent loads of money and paper and ink on him kayy . He should be Grateful :))

Anyway , there's nothing else . I'll post the pictures that i took there myself , but the group pictures and all , I'll post them later kay .

Byee peoples ! ;)

Vania , my teammate last year and this year too :) Love ya babe .

Jeremy Yap , the sumo with the bling bling ;)

Lee Inkkie , the hottest chick ever :)

Chan Tong , my Mortal :)

Schaefer , who's hair is longer than mine :/

Joneil Joseph , who was kind enough to bend to take a picture with me ! :)

Philip Gan , the craziest adult leader ever .

Shaun "The Sheep" Kang .

Cheng Nam , the cutie :)

Ken-Ji :)

Robin , who is so cute i could just eat him !

Ingrid , the hottie :)

JUSTINa :)

Audrey , who's so lame , her name is the name for lameness disease . Makes sense ?

Alexaa , who I only meet once a year :)

Pastor Andy , the coolest pastor ever .

Darren Soh , the geek who's not so geeky ;)

Travis Loh , who makes me melt everytime I see him ;))

Whee :)

Priyaa , who looks wayy older than she really is .

Ken-Ji again :)

Chai Tze Lin

yay !

DAVID COOK WON !
WHOOOP-DEEDOOO !

I knew he was gonna win , I just knew it .
David Archuleta is Okay , but I can't stand him . I just don't know why .

Aanyway, it's the holidays ! I'm excited ;D
I've got my whole two weeks completely planned , starting off with Teenacity's REVOLUTION camp , and I'm damn sure its gonna be as awesome as last year's . I really can't wait .



Then I'm going to Langkawi with my dad . Hope to do LOTS AND LOTS of shopping ! Books , chocolate , clothes and loads of other stuff .

Then of course there's Summer Splash aaaaand ............. tuition .
I'm starting tuition this holidays . Hahaha . Anyway , it'll be good seeing how extremely terribly I did in my mid year exams . Oh well .

That's all for today . I hope my blog's not stagnant anymore ;)